Moving through the darkness into light!

I almost thing that there should be music playing as you read this post. I am listening to ADELE a UK artist that I have fallen for her voice.

My definition of hell is feeling stuck in a place that is so dark, so dank, so oppressive, that it is nearly impossible to even take a breath. The energy of the darkness sat on my chest and my body was not able to take in the air it needed to shake the cobwebs of fear, despair, discouragement, and desperation from my mind, body and soul.

I close my eye right now and beathe down to the tips of my toes...and the cobwebs, although not totally blown out, are wisps...not walls. My spirit is able to move and dance and jump and .... I shimmy and shake as energy once again fills a body that was encased, entombed, nearly embalmed.

My mind is so happy that I have realized how to get back to me...back to center....back to the universal spirit that is within me - that is within all of us.
It's as if my walls that my ego or my mind created to keep me safe from all that was happening (losing the love of my life, losing my job, losing....nearly everything) and yet the truth is that i am not losing anything.... when I grasp, when I cling, when I pull things to me out of fear, they crumble into a million pieces and and flung in the wind to all the corners of the Universe.

For I need nothing (as i tell my sweet dear-heart friend/sister) to be complete...I am, as I am, Dede - the Craft Hippie enough, complete and i do not need LA, or WHE or lydgate or anything else to make me who I think i need to be. I DO NOT HAVE TO DO ANYTHING FOR PEOPLE TO LOVE ME. I DON'T HAVE TO MAKE 6 FIGURES. I DON'T HAVE TO BE THIN AND MODEL LIKE.... I am, who I am supposed to be at this point and time in my life....I AM ENOUGH