Well, today I ventured out of my loft. Pulled on T and oversized shorts (to cover drains and IV pick line, etc.) and took my wheeled shopping cart and walked the long hall to the elevators. Went to the first floor and to the mail boxes.
Wasn't too winded, however in my efforts to not push, decided to sit in he lobby for a bit and just let my body rest. Sat in a chair too low and after 30 min of rest asked for help to get up and was on my way back upstairs.
Lazy or should I say restful, non-eventful afternoon. Being so good and keeping on schedule. Back to bed to rest.
Hugs and Kisses...
Namaste'
Monday, June 22, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Mental and Spirit Healing
I can see now (post surgery)so much about my mental and spiritual state for quite some time prior to surgery. I was fighting so much internally that I did not totally know about. Had known for some times that things were not right. I'm amazed how much calmer and at peace in such a short time. I feel like a new person. I know I will be able to get back to my center, my love, my passion for my craft...I have so many ideas and thoughts boiling in me already.
Eternal Joy....
Gratitude for conventional medicine to fix my issues.
Gratitude for spirital and higher power healing of the rest.
Love for my friends on facebook, myspace, and ravelry for their love and support and true compassion for me.
Thanks to my 3 co-workers who helped me out.
Eternal love to my 2 babies, Sydney and Ashleigh who are the reason I had to push forward when I did not care to.
Amazement and awe for myself and how much drive I have after how I felt just a few days ago...I thought I was lost forever.
LOVE to All.
May every person on earth feel this heart centered peace and calm that I feel right now at least once in their life....
Namaste'
Dede
Craft Hippie
Eternal Joy....
Gratitude for conventional medicine to fix my issues.
Gratitude for spirital and higher power healing of the rest.
Love for my friends on facebook, myspace, and ravelry for their love and support and true compassion for me.
Thanks to my 3 co-workers who helped me out.
Eternal love to my 2 babies, Sydney and Ashleigh who are the reason I had to push forward when I did not care to.
Amazement and awe for myself and how much drive I have after how I felt just a few days ago...I thought I was lost forever.
LOVE to All.
May every person on earth feel this heart centered peace and calm that I feel right now at least once in their life....
Namaste'
Dede
Craft Hippie
The Hippie is nearly back...
Good Sunday Morning....
I actually don't know where to start. I am sitting at my desk after sleeping and or nodding off watching tv (in bed) for 36 +/- hours and at this moment in minimal pain (very) and feel amazing (considering)...
I'm amazed at how much pain I was in prior to surgery and how bad...how serious it really was. I had a very fast growing growth that was wrapping it's way around my ovaries, uterus, and bladder...had a total hysterectomy, no pain. Will deal naturapathically.
But I had been living with dibiltating pain and this ever growing bulge in my torso mid-section for years...insane pain with what I thought to be muscle spasms. Come to find out I had a very large hernia with a strangulated tranverse colon. I'm asking to see pictures. Heard it was twisted and purple and very dangerous.
Then, there's the MRSA pocket of infection that was in the middle of my stomach. So I was labeled infection disease and everyone had to wear special garb to come see me in ICU (even nurses and dr.). And I am having to still have IVs of antibiotics while at home. Such a pain.
I was frantic the last 2 days to get home...so see my puppies and be in my safe spot. To be able to get up a fix a peanut butter and cracker or get a drink from the fridge. To go pee when I wanted. But mainly to get back to my babies - my puppies. Whie I was gone I had a dog walker/feeder/watch them. I can't even speak about this now. I think he did almost nothing. But my heart needed their love and I was so needing my angels.
My ride home had complications and I ended up having to take a cab home. Thanks to my cousin dropping off some money at the hospital for me, I had the money and quite frankly the cab experience was not a problem at all. Had a nice driver, listened to NPR - just sat back and relaxed, finally heading home. (Goes to show that my 10+ hours of freaking out about having to take a cab home was for not.)
I have so much more to write. I have so many feelings and experiences to share. But I have been up 2 hours and feeling the need to recline. Listening to my bodies needs for healing. Just feeling grateful for being on the healing side of this mess. And the pains I am feeling now is my body adjusting and healing. That I can handle.
love and peace to all. gratitude to my drs and nurses. special gratitude to those several nurses that were angels and touched my soul, not just helped me out of bed and gave me my medicine. and for those who served me with attitude, rudeness, comments, lack of spirit and compassion - may you find that which some of your co-workers have and may your life be touched in a way that you learn how to be a better caregiver.
Namaste'
Dede
Craft Hippie
I actually don't know where to start. I am sitting at my desk after sleeping and or nodding off watching tv (in bed) for 36 +/- hours and at this moment in minimal pain (very) and feel amazing (considering)...
I'm amazed at how much pain I was in prior to surgery and how bad...how serious it really was. I had a very fast growing growth that was wrapping it's way around my ovaries, uterus, and bladder...had a total hysterectomy, no pain. Will deal naturapathically.
But I had been living with dibiltating pain and this ever growing bulge in my torso mid-section for years...insane pain with what I thought to be muscle spasms. Come to find out I had a very large hernia with a strangulated tranverse colon. I'm asking to see pictures. Heard it was twisted and purple and very dangerous.
Then, there's the MRSA pocket of infection that was in the middle of my stomach. So I was labeled infection disease and everyone had to wear special garb to come see me in ICU (even nurses and dr.). And I am having to still have IVs of antibiotics while at home. Such a pain.
I was frantic the last 2 days to get home...so see my puppies and be in my safe spot. To be able to get up a fix a peanut butter and cracker or get a drink from the fridge. To go pee when I wanted. But mainly to get back to my babies - my puppies. Whie I was gone I had a dog walker/feeder/watch them. I can't even speak about this now. I think he did almost nothing. But my heart needed their love and I was so needing my angels.
My ride home had complications and I ended up having to take a cab home. Thanks to my cousin dropping off some money at the hospital for me, I had the money and quite frankly the cab experience was not a problem at all. Had a nice driver, listened to NPR - just sat back and relaxed, finally heading home. (Goes to show that my 10+ hours of freaking out about having to take a cab home was for not.)
I have so much more to write. I have so many feelings and experiences to share. But I have been up 2 hours and feeling the need to recline. Listening to my bodies needs for healing. Just feeling grateful for being on the healing side of this mess. And the pains I am feeling now is my body adjusting and healing. That I can handle.
love and peace to all. gratitude to my drs and nurses. special gratitude to those several nurses that were angels and touched my soul, not just helped me out of bed and gave me my medicine. and for those who served me with attitude, rudeness, comments, lack of spirit and compassion - may you find that which some of your co-workers have and may your life be touched in a way that you learn how to be a better caregiver.
Namaste'
Dede
Craft Hippie
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